After 40 years of playing professionally in just about every genre imaginable, with the money being amazing as well as horrible, I finally realized what a waste of time the whole gigging thing has been. In retrospect, I should have chosen a much more stable and sensible profession. I had a great time over the many years and became a very proficient player and what many people even called "very talented". Yet, I regret this occupation choice very much, as it has not provided any sort of financial security or lasting satisfaction for me as I approach 60 years old.
I had a considerable amount of professional and artistic success as a keyboardist and musical director, but damned if shouldn't have become a dentist instead. It's too late now, most regrettably.
I have no spark or desire to play my instrument anymore in any context, going on three and a half years since my last gig. The music "business" today is a joke compared to what it was in the 80's, 90's, and even the early 2000's. How anyone would enjoy playing the crap music that is popular today is beyond me. Jazz has been done to death, literally, and it always sounds like a circle jerk to me, even though I played "jazz" for many years. Again - a totally over-hyped waste of time. A schmooze-fest of cliques and name-dropping.
Bitter much? Not me! (LOL!)
Anyway - just my input on this thread...
JT.