And at the same time. I have a fascination with synthesizers .
Follow your fascinations, interests, and whatever, no matter how normal or strange or whatever. Do what really interests you. Seriously. Life's too short to do anything other than that.
You have no idea how LUCKY and PRIVILEGED we are to actually have time to ponder these things and have free time to do it. Most people in the world cannot. Don't squander that. Seize the opportunity. You want to play with synthesizers, do flower arranging, collect pocket lint, travel to all the countries that start with "I", take up knitting, or take up night photography, do it.
But do it because you want to, not because you think it will make money.