Everybody is different.
I am incapable of not playing music.
I write songs in my head all the time.

If you don't want to do it, find something you do want to do and do that.
It doesn't matter what it is - George Washington Carver was avid about botanicals, I doubt he chose that. It chose him.
Others knit, draw, shoot pool, etc.

What has chosen you?

There is never enough time to be in a hurry...